21 10 / 2014


shots fired

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21 10 / 2014

Re-downloaded Tinder to see if I could cheer myself up and maybe try and actually have some fun but then there’s also this…. -_-

21 10 / 2014

Status update: Functioning but still in a generally shitty mood.

Thank god this week is super busy and I don’t really have that much time to think about things. 

20 10 / 2014

If anyone is feeling the overwhelming need to send me gifts (y’know for cheering up purposes) cAN YOU PLEASE GET ME SOMETHING FROM HERE?

20 10 / 2014

Anonymous said: how can you call yourself a feminist but then drool over a boy?


babe i can fight the patriarchy and ride a dick those things are not mutually exclusive

18 10 / 2014


velma on the streets but daphne in the sheets

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17 10 / 2014


1. Last weekend I almost called you but I didn’t want to bother you and my hands were shaking too hard to dial anyway.

2. I kissed a boy I met a few weeks ago. I swallowed my tears when he wasn’t looking and when I showed my mother a picture of the two of us, she told me he looks a lot like you.

3. I fell asleep on my best friend’s couch and she told me I was crying in my sleep the way I used to when I missed you.

4. Last night I was driving alone and the air felt like it did the first time you kissed me, when everything was cold except for us and cool air was hitting my teeth because I couldn’t stop smiling. I almost crashed the fucking car.

5. I was in the store today and I saw a keychain with your name on it and I bought it. I’ve been squeezing it in my hand so hard it’s leaving marks on my skin. There are still marks on my skin from the night you left. I’ve stopped thinking they’ll go away.

6. I watched your favorite movie 4 times today.

7. The boy I sit next to in English class smells like you.

8. I was just calling to see how your little brother is doing.

9. I stopped drinking peppermint tea because it tastes too much like the days we used to spend together. I also stopped sleeping.

10. You left some stuff at my house, maybe you should come pick it up and we can get coffee or something.

11. I play your favorite song a lot. I don’t even fucking like it.


11 ways I tried to tell you I really fucking miss you  (via extrasad)


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17 10 / 2014

15 10 / 2014

I feel kind of a weird mixture of sad, pissed off, and just ready to get on with this weekend and forget about everything thats happening. Went out to try to socialize with the hillwalking society at the pub last night, but I ended up just moping in a chip shop across the street with my two other flatmates… They keep on trying to console me and tell me that it seems like a temporary breakup, but I don’t really know if the Engineer is the type of person to go chasing after someone again.

I guess I should have probably been prepared for something like this to happen, but I think I’ve been trying to put it in the back of my mind since I got here. 

I needed him to be there for me, but apparently that’s just not going to work out. I think its going to be a while before I can move on from all of this, but in the meantime I have other things to worry about. Like my interview tomorrow. That I am now not even close to being prepared to do.

UGH. Brb gonna go try to keep my shit together and probably fail miserably at it.

14 10 / 2014

Was really looking forward to finally getting a chance to FaceTime with the Engineer again tonight but now I really just want to crawl under a rock and just not come out.

So while Mohawk got back together with his girlfriend over the weekend (woohoo no more fwb) the Engineer decided that he just really doesn’t want to be with me anymore.

So fuck you too.

Also, FYI “caring too much” is literally the worst excuse to break up with someone. Ever.