29 9 / 2014


boys who hate bright lipsticks because “itll get all over them” fail to realize it will come nowhere near them

(via knitter-meets-world)

29 9 / 2014


I have a problem with the phrase
I love you,
Because I don’t want love as a response
or an obligation 
or a reaction.
I want passion
something undeniable
I don’t want it to be a competition of who loves
and who loves
I don’t want to apologize for wearing my heart on my sleeve
or being undeniably good to you.
I don’t want to be called naive 
for pouring every drop of my heart into you
for twisting my soul around yours until I can feel
the very core of who you are. 
I don’t want to be called stupid
for still loving you then
at your worst
or when you are selfish
or when you don’t deserve it.

And above all else,
I don’t want you to love me,
Just love me.

(via wes-g)

29 9 / 2014

27 9 / 2014

"We assume others show love the same way we do — and if they don’t, we worry it’s not there."

Everyone has their own love language. That’s one of the most important lessons I’ve ever learned.  (via c-oquetry)

(Source: psych-facts, via ralphabetsoup)

27 9 / 2014

(Source: Spotify)

27 9 / 2014

Snuggletime - check

Morning period sex - check

Breakfast - check

Lazing around until 1pm - check

mmmm yes yes that was nice let’s do that again.

Also apparently I’m better than I thought in bed (which after 15+ guys maybe that comes with the territory? hmmm)

25 9 / 2014


When you sleep, I sleep.

However, I can’t sleep without you.

(via the-batkat)

25 9 / 2014

25 9 / 2014


"My boyfriend/girlfriend won’t let me"
Excuse me
What was that?
YOU ¿ 
How lovely congratulations on your 3rd parental guardian

(via the-batkat)

24 9 / 2014

Had a really nice chat with the Engineer last night that actually didn’t end in tears for once (!!). Its been really hard with the move and everything, but talking to him and seeing his face honestly just sometimes makes everything feel so much better. It kind of reminds me why I fell for him in the first place, and its such a pick-me-up to get a chance to revisit that every once in a while. He’s such an introverted person just in general that I think sometimes it takes me seeing visual cues and the expressions on his face to realize that he actually has emotions (LOL). And as difficult as it is to illicit any kind of actual feelings he has about situations like this, I think its the subtlety about him that makes it more worth it when he does let down his guard. He’s such the opposite of me - that stoic, kind of quiet personality - that sometimes it surprises me how we ever ended up together. But for whatever reason I love him and the fact that I’m away in Scotland hasn’t really changed much of that.

I miss him so much, but at the same time I feel a lot better after last night. I’m hoping that we can keep Facetiming once a week or something, but with the time change its a little difficult.

The only bummer though is that I still feel like I’m in limbo right now…Regardless of whatever our situation is right now with “taking a break” or whatever, I really just want to be able to come back in the Spring and have him to be there for me, and I know that’s not really the easiest thing to ask of someone. I feel better now that there’s no question of whether or not we’re gonna keep talking to each other, but its still a constant thought in the back of my mind of what-ifs. What if he finds someone better, what if he doesn’t want to get back together, blah blah. 

I know that at least for me, it doesn’t really matter who I meet here, including Mohawk, that could end in any kind of decision where I wouldn’t want to see the Engineer when I get back home. I’d be silly to pursue anything when I’m only here for a semester. Even with the hookups I’ve had here, nothing compares to having that connection with the Engineer - the sex isn’t as good, cuddles don’t stack up, etc. 

And I suppose I should clarify - I ended up again with Mohawk again over the weekend, because I make silly decisions when I’m drunk and stressed out. No sex, just kind of chilling and half hooking up after we ran into him at one of the campus societies’ night out. I had lunch with him today, and its honestly just nice to have him as a friend. Like I said, there’s really nothing there that would ever want me to replace the Engineer for him or anything like that, he’s just a nice guy that would probs be more like a fwb than anything else.

So there you have it - the beginnings of my adventures in Scotland.

Happy hookups and try not to let your relationships get too complicated (it kinda sucks dealing with this shit)